You should probably get that checked out....

ok so meant to put up new stuff for a while but unfortunately my scanner is still screwed up so for now all I have is a new I.d.

Within the next two week I will have a new deviation up. I tried to scan it, because I wanted to use photoshop to color it, but my computer decided to be retarded and now I have to do it by hand. I will be doing it between work (got a new job by the way at a Japanese restaraunt) so hang tight! Also, I will be trying to get another two up soon after that, one of them is all ready colored, and the other one will just be black and white....mainly because I cant figure out how I want it done, lol. So, cross ur fingers I can color it as well as I could get it in photoshop!(All though we know THATS not gonna happen with me,lol)

Taken from my livejournal.


Seems like every night now I have a nightmare. I left town for the weekend and all my stress dissapated. I even stopped grinding my teeth. However, as we neared closer to home, it all went to hell again. EVERYTHING started up again. Today my legs, ankles and feet are swollen quite a bit from the 17+ hour car ride home, excluding the car ride there. That would make it over 24 hours long. Screw adding it up. Im lazy. I wanted to relax today and get the swelling to go down. Of course, no relaxing, only stress....
So, I took a nap. Guess what happened? Had a fucking nightmare! Woke up even more stressed. This is tiring. When is this ever going to end? Oh yeah, when I say so, yet I cant seem to find my voice. The voice that a man said he found soothing and beautiful, is actually that way because it is plagued by pain and nightmares. Plagued. Thats the only word fitting enough for it. To describe it. In summary, damn it all, I left my peace back where I last went. Perhaps that where I should have remained. Hopefully my next peaceful place wont be six feet under. The cause? Death by night terror. I cant tell you how many nights I have woken up screaming. From what? Who knows. Guess I will find out tonight, wont I?

I just left the doctors after my procedure and I dont knwo what or if there is anythign rly wrong yet, but my arms look liek I have been shooting up bc they couldnt find a vein, but MAN am I glad to have solid foods again. I was on a liquid diet before the procedure. I was grinding my teeth bc I wanted REAL food. GAH I am still tired too from the sedative, but hey, I am more fun right now, eh?? lol jk.